January 20th - January 29th 2019
My heart, mind and soul were tangled dead by December. Desperate to relieve the heavy weight on my whole being, I braved asking Mama and Papa about going on a solo trip to Melbourne and staying there for a while with my best friend, Emily. To my surprise and joy, they agreed and the next thing I knew, I had “Melbourne” on my January 2019 itinerary, set to fly after my final paper.
Being the emotional human I am, 8 hours of “me, myself and I” was comforting but lonely at the same time, not to mention I had the rows all to myself for both flights (cue extra emotional background music). I pretty much had Quran on Spotify as my company throughout to soothe any incoming “waterworks” and I was really really trying my best to stay upbeat by the time the plane touches Melbourne soil.
9PM touchdown, super chilly night weather and seeing Emily walking towards me at the airport after a year of not meeting started my 10 days journey of self-healing, rediscovering beautiful places (and myself), eating delightful food and making new friends. With this trip, I recouped the idea of “being in the moment” and “taking things slow” because I sincerely believed my biggest flaw is the fact I always try to thrive too fast and too hard, that when I don’t achieve it in the amount of time that I’ve set, I will completely lose myself in despair.
Buuutttt there’s nothing a holiday can’t fix, right? True enough, I came home feeling like a better Haifa.
And much like this renewed and rebranded Haifa, I decided to take my photos slow too. I fell in love with the idea of not knowing how my photos will turn out. As dramatic as this will sound, the first time I used my film camera, I literally finished it in a day and got it developed the next day because I simply can’t wait. Which completely defeats the purpose, right? So, I decided to use this whole film photography to teach myself to be patient.
I packed myself three rolls of film and went on to take photos for 10 days. I tried my best to not think about how it will turn out. Like hey, it might come out blurry, or my shawl is flying off or I could just be plain ugly but hey! It’s okay!
So here it goes, the photos that turned out alright.
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