I hope you continue to love me,
despite my distance,
my hesitance,
my ambivalence,
my fatigue,
I hope you continue to see my beauty,
no matter what.
A selfish thing to ask of you,
but I hope in your doubt,
your hurt,
your despair,
even your anger,
I hope you continue to look at me with fondness.
I hope you continue to love me.
Because I love you.
Excerpt from my diary; 16 October 2018